love.crush.crush.love. hmm. i wonder which is it. or maybe i should not think about it. im clueless myself. it beats going shopping than to think about this. it's driving me nuts. to me, you have just ruined the atmosphere that is created when you ask that question. how can i answer? it's too fast to judge. i will feel downright awful when i answer you that question. i guess that's not the answer that you wanted to hear. please give me time to actually be sure about my feelings towards you.  it's not wrong to know each other well first right? hmm. love, you are driving me crazy.

i dont know why, i feel like crying~

 met bestfriend at the interchange and headed towards the gym. it was just the both of us. i had alot to talk as usual; hehs. mainly, its just about my boyfriends and her chocolates. haha. guess its bestfriends day out? hmm. not so. my ideal bestfriends day out is sitting at the garden and have ice-cream with us chit-chatting. we got lots to talk actually. it can last us for one day, right bestfriend? hehs. thats not alot for a day out right? shopping is one thing and just having the time for us is one more thing. i love sitting more than shopping. haha. okay wait, this is getting abit boring right? hmm. talking about having time, i miss cute. cute is in pulau ubin right now, dont know doing what. sleeping i guess~ i miss you like damn much ah. as big as the ocean in mauritus. hehe. come back soon allright. safe and sound. (:

butterflies in the stomach. crush. love.

yesterday was fun fun fun. haha. headed to jurong point to meet bestfriend for awhile and eat macs. we had a whole lot of fun. i miss laughing with her. she's the only one that can make me laugh hard ah. haha. i cant imagine my life without her.  okay so mushy sia~ hmm aft that meet up with that cute at macs again. life can be boring sometimes, right karl? hehs. kay no, meeting cute was not boring. super duper cute sia you with the drink thingy. bt that was sweet ah. guess what? kay, its not something surprising. bt heyy, i got my green bag already. its green. yeah i know. but i change my favourite colour for almost every year. this year was purple. i guess next would be green. cos my wallet is already green. hehehu. maybe because i saw cute wearing green, that's why. he's not the only reason okay. green green green everywhere~ hehs. hmm. to someone, im sorry if the closeness is hurting you. i didnt know that it would hurt. ive told you not to pin hopes on me. i hope you understand that you cant force some things to happen. it just happen. when it didnt, then i guess you should just let it that way. im sorry that i hurt you. i really didnt have the intention to do it. im really sorry.

deep down, im sorry.

im so bored right now. and so, i decided to blog. just about anything. maybe i should blog about bestfriend first. okay so, i can't seem to contact her these few days because of her prepaid. it was okay la actually. its just that im bored without you around. i hope to see you next monday. better show up, okay you! hehe. hmm. and yeah. i just started my religious class today. my dad being the teacher. haha. i was about to laugh at first. it was all aunties and yeah, some polytechnic students there. boring sia. i was the youngest there lah, mind you. oh yes, i cant really use my hp now. because all my sms-friend is all guys so cannot play already. by NINE. hah. one word, BOR-ING; sorry to all who have been msging me after nine ah. we'll msg tomorrow okay. bye.

hai readers.(: life has been a total bore since school holidays. haha. went out with my cousins today. to town again. but this time was different. i found dickies bag. hehs. Green-in-colour. pheew~ atlast ah i found it. not that satisfied with the colour but it was okay i guess. and so, i thought of buying it today but what the promoter there offfered me changed my mind totally. she said there will be a discount this 20th november for that bag. woohoo~ i reserved it for me already. hehehu. thinking of buying blue but one of my clasmates have it already. tsk. and yeah happy ah abeh. been seaching it whole singapore. hehe. what yaya what- OH yes, i heard karl's sister is having her birthday this week, idk which day but HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARTINA~ ((:

went out yesterday with karl to town yesterday and my feet is aching damn much. it was a worthwhile trip, i guess; we were wearing the same colour of shirt. hehe. her favourite colour. thought of going to the skypark but we make it a miss cause its getting late. karl had some embarassing moments with the escalator. heehee~ funny sia karlina. you should see the panic stricken face of hers. hahaha. chill ah karl~ im just playing around. and yeah, i cant wait to buy a new bag. yes, same colour wtih you teddy. (:

someone went to sentosa today. heee~ enjoy friend. (: its 5.38 pm now. and im damn hungry. i dont know what to eat so i ate mum's jelly. hahahe. im going to get my results tmr. alah alaah~  it sends me shivers just by thinking about it. nevermind about that. someone sent a lolipop to me again today. hehe. so cute ah outside my class? deean said we were both cute. lululul ah~ and eh thanks again for the candy. Anyway, going to pasir ris this saturday. anyone want to follow? nahhh~ cant wait for it, i guess? happy but curious. i hope its only cousins and no one else. im trying to find the perfect dress for it but none is picked. its okay, i still have 1 more day. hahahe~

 forgiveness are steps on our road, to lead us back to happiness~ 

hello world. (: i just had news from ms tan that there will be two guys and 1 girl going down to n.a. who would it be eh? im afraid its going to be me. but shashi just assured me that im not going down. pheew~ that was a close shave. yeah, i was superbly scared about it. i almost cried. i pity those who have gone down. there must be a reason behind everything. so brace up guys. (: hmm. see that candy above? its my favourite now. eventhough i havent even open up the wrappers. it was from someone and ive collected two of them already. hehehe~ it was so sweet of that person. thanks ah. i extremely love it. so yeah, parents-meeting-session this friday. i like this session as  i can show my lovely parents to my friends. hehe~. (;

 whats done , cannot be undone. im sorry~

oooh. this is my celebrity boyfriend. be jealous people~ hehehe. okay so went to the gym on friday with sitie, rasinah and cliques. it was fun. khumz did a very funny thing until some random guys makes a weird look. hehehe~  i cant hold back my laughter when i heard about it. chill khumzy~ i was just playing. dont take it to heart eh; haha . and eh i think im falling in love. with my night- time friend. cihhh~ so yeah, it was my first time going to the gym. okay be surprised.  pardon me for my not-knowing-anything about gym, sitie. and thakns for the free tutorial. heehee~ going to the gym was just plain tired. it really drained out my energy. but i had a good, sweet sleep after that. (: im preety sure im going to that paradise again. ~

 im tired of waiting. open up sunshine and let me in~

How i wish i could be a baby again. so i dont have to think of anything. just playing and crying when im upset about something. one thing for sure, im really dissapointed with you, little brother. i thought you were different. but what to do. you love mum. and i love her too. if mum did changed, alhamdulillah and im the first to be happy about it as that's what ive wanted all along, her affection. but ive decided on what i want so im carriying on with it. i dont want to be fickle minded. it just takes time and i want to take it slow. im sorry... Anyway, went out with nini magnet today. after all those years im with her, this is the first time i knew she loves pink. huuh. im sorry, magnettie~  heheh. thats how un-observant i am. i had alot of fun today. well, i felt abit weird for while as nini's friends were there too. alltogether there is 6 of us. 3 girls, 3 guys.  the guys was cracking jokes all the time. and its triple happiness, i guess? hehehe~ nini kept laughing on whatever they do. even a single movement could make her laugh. teehee. it was a whole lot of fun being with nini's friends. (: i'll make sure there will be a second time. ehee~ and heyy, we've got alot to talk actually, magnet. meet up soon aites(:

I swore I'd never fall again but this don't even feel like falling. gravity can't forget, to pull me back to the ground again~